Mother May I

 Everyone’s little ducks in a row. It’s what I want, it’s my goal.

Neat little lines, all measured and set. Nothing can interfere and yet.

I have a view of how things should be. Don’t question just listen to me.

It makes me feel good a false sense of peace. What’s on the inside matters the least.

I know what’s best. Just ask me  don’t use your own discernment then you’ll see. 

All will be perfect just for me 

In my own delusion and deniability 

So if you’re pretty and shiny without. I don’t care what’s within as long as  it doesn’t come out.

Don’t drink. don’t smoke, don’t cuss, be nice. No matter if you’re dying inside

Your searching and freedom and doing things new make me uncomfortable and question you 

Please do what I want without objection. It makes me feel good and not feel rejection.

M. Sauls 

July 9, 2023